Dear Ebenezer, just discovered your blog not long ago. Reading your articles is like reading my own story. Same as you, I grew up in one of HK's poorest housing district, graduated from an unknown secondary school, have one son who happens to share the same name as yours, still have not been able to forget the tragedy happened to China 28 years ago. Understand that you are having a difficult time in life, please cheer up and be assured that you are not alone, and more importantly, please be assured that when the night has gone, the sun will still rise again in the east.
Hope you will like the song below: http://www.bilibili.com/video/av4896301/the film itself is also worth watching which I hope will be healing to your current situation.